Things Unsaid

1) I'm sorry I said nothing before...

2) You are super, amazing, and awesome. STOP. DENYING IT.

3) I promise we will stay close, but you've gotta promise too

4) You're a bitch, but I love you ^^

5) I want you do suffer and die. And you probably don't even know my name.

6) Noone ever told you... But I can't either. Because it's too late.

7) fat is where it's AT!! XD (and I know you'll appreciate that )

8) I wish you would just leave me alone

9) The Game

10) You'll always be a part of my life, no matter what.

11) I am grateful to you for sharing my twisted sense of humor XD

12) I'm sorry I was such a bitch to you in the past. Only looking back on it now do I even realize that I was. And I kick myself in the back for it every single day. And I know you won't read this, I don't think we've even spoken more than two words to each other sense then. I've tried to apologize, but the words won't come. It's especially awkward since.... Well I can't say. You would know though, if you ever read this or even knew it existed for that matter. Sometimes the things we want to say the most are the hardest to say.

13) Penguins and waffles. Clever XD (although I suppose that wasn't neccesary to put here...

14) this one is not to the same person, but it is an exact repeat of number two.

15) I only wish that that band competition could have gone on longer...

16) If only I could say to you what I really want to say... But it seems that not even here. Not even here where you won't evcen know. And I still can't say it. What does that say of me?

17) I wish that it could have been different. Y'know, this is strangely threaputic. It makes me realize that there really is a lot that we don't say. Or maybe that's just me... Anyway, I'll type the one to you in 18.

18) I really wish it could have been different. But I guess if it had been... idk. It sucks that I couldn't have gotten to know you better. And I'll probably wonder forever, "what if"? And that sucks. I don't know really what you ever thought about me, but I thought a lot of you. Probably more than you realized.

19) Why did you have to move, dammit... fskjalladjfosuhrsk.

20) For that matter, why do you have to move?!

21) And you! This sucks... sigh...

22) If you txt me one more time, I swear I am going to cause some illegal damage. Do you not get that I don't want to talk to you? You'd think that the past fifty unanswered txts would be a hint.

23) Exactly how often have you... nevermind

24) Wow... the longest one in here was to you. Someone I never even speak to. It's amazing how someone like that can have such a huge impact on your life.

25) This one is to you too. Does your mom talk about me as much to you from my grandma as my grandma talks about you to me as my mom? O.o

26) this is to anyone reading this. Now I just want to hit 30. it's a good number.

27) I can't believe how close it's become. I can almost... ALMOST... allow myself to follow it once again.

28) Why can't you make up your damn mind and get it together?! I though you promised yourself you would never be this kind of person. However, I suppose we can't always be as strong as we think we are.

29) You're killing yourself. Litterally. Please stop, because we love you.

30) it's because of you that I have faith at all. You will never know how special you are to me. How important. I even remember you helping me through hard times when I was very little. You have always been so strong, and as I grow older I realize just how incredible you really are. Despite your sweet, undrestanding nature, you've never put up with any shit. You are so very strong, despite your horrible desisions you made before I was even born. You have always been there. I love you so much, and I just hope that you know that. I hope that you know how often I thank God that you are in my life. You always say that God gave me to you when you just really needed me. That I saved your life. But I think that God realized how much I would need YOU. It was the other way around. God gave me you. Thank you for always being there, and shaping me into the person I am today. I wouldn't be who I am without you. I know that. So thank you.

31) I love you.

32) I wish we could have been closer, unfortunately you live in houston. x.x

33) You were my very first ever best friend. It sucks that we lost touch. But I will always remember those good times, and wonder if you do too.

34) Get off the computer. You need to rest.